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I'm all antsy about my appointment this week. I get my results back from the blood test last week, maybe some other not so fun doctory stuff. They were a little vague about what this appointment would entail, but I might be getting my prescription. In which case, I'm not sure whether I'd be able to actually get the first shot or if I'd have to wait a week... depends on when I get the prescription vs how long it takes to get it to a pharmacy, have them take all my insurance info and get it filled and back to the clinic, because they're only open until about 8 and my appointment is 530. So. Maybe, but I don't want to get my hopes up too much.
I almost told my supervisor about it yesterday at work and even had like the perfect opportunity to do so but then didn't. I'd mentally prepared myself to do it at the end of her visit, closer to 6, but she got there at like 4 before S or A had gotten there and I was just about to wrap up the small talk and have out with it but then Paratransit showed up with A. So... I might email her, I guess. Or her and Jame. I don't know. I have a lot of anxiety about it, similar to but different from the anxiety leading up to telling my parents. With them I didn't really question whether they'd still love me and stuff, just, not knowing how they'd react. Here... I don't /think/ I'll lose my job or anything, but I can't KNOW, either. =/
This morning I've been watching a lot of videos from this guy's youtube channel, which starts from the day he got his first T shot. Actually kinda makes me consider doing the same. I've always been super weird about hearing my own voice recorded- it sounds so wrong. =/ When I'm just talking and hearing myself through my head you know I sound more like me. =P It was like that for me even as a kid. I wanted a deep voice when I was a kid. Anyway, if I started doing video blogs it would be around when I start taking T and at that point my voice will start changing especially after a couple months and it'll be more of a documentation thing I guess. No promises. >:[
I almost told my supervisor about it yesterday at work and even had like the perfect opportunity to do so but then didn't. I'd mentally prepared myself to do it at the end of her visit, closer to 6, but she got there at like 4 before S or A had gotten there and I was just about to wrap up the small talk and have out with it but then Paratransit showed up with A. So... I might email her, I guess. Or her and Jame. I don't know. I have a lot of anxiety about it, similar to but different from the anxiety leading up to telling my parents. With them I didn't really question whether they'd still love me and stuff, just, not knowing how they'd react. Here... I don't /think/ I'll lose my job or anything, but I can't KNOW, either. =/
This morning I've been watching a lot of videos from this guy's youtube channel, which starts from the day he got his first T shot. Actually kinda makes me consider doing the same. I've always been super weird about hearing my own voice recorded- it sounds so wrong. =/ When I'm just talking and hearing myself through my head you know I sound more like me. =P It was like that for me even as a kid. I wanted a deep voice when I was a kid. Anyway, if I started doing video blogs it would be around when I start taking T and at that point my voice will start changing especially after a couple months and it'll be more of a documentation thing I guess. No promises. >:[