reps

Exercise post. I know you all love 'em. >_<

Ohmygosh. So. Last weekend Rebecca, the lady that usually works here on Sundays and Thursdays, asked if I'd mind covering this sunday (today). Not one to turn down extra hours unless I've actively got something planned, I accepted. Only later to remember that would complicate my workout schedule because usually Sunday's routine involves the chinup bar. Which, obviously, I don't have here at work.

But I figure I need to learn to be flexible, so I decided to switch tuesday's and sunday's routines. It's not ideal, because sunday and thursday both involve chinups, which would ideally be a few days apart, so I expect on thursday I probably won't be able to get in quite as many chinup reps. Erf. I figure it's still a lot better than skipping today or messing up my routine any more.

Yesterday was my 'rest' day, and they give you the option of resting or doing X-stretch. Last week I stretched, but this week I tried just resting. And my gosh, I feel like I paid for it. I felt really tense, taking at least an hour to finally fall asleep, and when I did I didn't feel like I slept as well... it was really hard to wake up this morning, too. So, hypothesis tested, do stretches on rest days. >_<

Anyway, doing pretty awesome with the workout stuff otherwise. I feel like the supplements help, but I want to learn more about what I'm taking and maybe find some better stuff. I discovered that the AWE60 protein drink I've been taking after workouts has a little bit of Acesulfate or whatever that stuff is I'm allergic to. Not as much as some things (like orange tang, most chewing gums, and as I've recently discovered, basically all red wine D=), but enough that I've had a little bit of cold sores at the corners of my mouth. It's like the last ingredient, so there's hardly any in there, why does it have to be in there at all? Dammit. So far the benefit outweighs the annoyance, but I'm going to be looking for another decent protein drink that doesn't have the sulfas. Maybe I'll get lucky and one of the other flavors of the same stuff won't have it. Grrrr.

I'm starting to be able to feel some muscle definition underneath the layer of fat, which is pretty awesome. My calves had been doing pretty good anyway, but now I can feel the biceps a lot more than before. Blah blah blah sometimes I feel like a tool talking about this stuff like this but it makes me happy and I put that exercise disclaimer at the beginning so you guys don't have to read it if you don't want.

I guess I should go clean up... I've let the house get kinda messy, oops. >_<

ETA- Did a bit of research and found an after-workout recovery drink that has significantly better reviews, and I was able to find a list of ingredients, which does not include the stuff I'm allergic to. Booya.

discouraging

Gosh, this is discouraging. -__-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MktENiDIjoM
(Skyler was applying for a job and got a gender no-match letter, which so far has prevented him from getting rehired by a company he worked for previously under his old name. Apparently one has to have had Gender Reassignment Surgery in order to change your social security gender marker.)

more info- http://www.transequality.org/Resources/NoMatch_employees.pdf

I really want to get my state ID and stuff changed over as soon as possible, but I worry that will make it difficult for me to get other jobs in the future. Here's hoping I actually do have some job security here.

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Also, sometimes my job is very demoralizing. I should not have agreed to cover an extra shift, PARTICULARLY the one right between my other shifts. I haven't been home since friday, and because my supervisor forgot to make sure we had community activity money before going out of town for the weekend, we couldn't even break the monotony by going to see a movie or something. Sure, there may have been plenty of free activities available, but it is almost impossible to get A to go out and do ANYTHING and if it doesn't involve spending money, quite frankly, she ain't interested. And of course since she was bored all weekend despite my efforts, she was in a bad mood and in return ended up taking it out on S and myself. Me more than S, because she was smart enough to retreat into her room, whereas I didn't have that option.

I get to go home tomorrow at 9, but I have to be back here at 4pm for another shift. Tuesday morning can't come soon enough. -__-

A told me I was pretty while I was making dinner. She does that, periodically, and I always just grit my teeth and say thank you. This time she went on to tell me that she was picturing me in a dress and stockings and high heels. And telling me how I should get a pedicure or a manicure and get fake nails on. I know she doesn't know yet, I know it's a mistake of ignorance and not malice, I know she was even trying to be complimentary, but it still feels pretty awful, and makes me worry that even when she does know, she won't be accepting, at all.

Sorry for the emo, guys. I wish I was going to be sleeping in my own bed, tonight.