post-disclosure

So I'm at work. Post-disclosure to S and A. And things are about the same. Which is way better than the way it could have gone. I could wish that A wasn't still using my old name, but it'll come with time and practice. S hasn't used any name for me since I've been back, though from what I heard from our HR person in my meeting with her and my direct supervisor on thursday, S's biggest problem is that she can't pronounce 'Seth' to save her life.

The closest A has come to saying anything about it was yesterday she saw the welcome screen on my computer that asks for the password, and has Seth as my username. Almost immediately she said something to me calling me Miss [oldname], with emphasis on the miss. She was trying to push buttons so I didn't let on that it bothered me at all. Annoying, but if she doesn't get any gratification from using stuff like that against me she probably won't keep it up.

I'd love to be able to talk to her pretty candidly about it, but that'll come with time, I guess. Right now I think the important thing is that she knows about it and -isn't- freaking out. It's just different. Weird. But she's always known I'm pretty weird so I guess it all just fits in with the rest.

physical changes lately

I haven't posted much about physical changes lately, so here's a few things I've noticed.

I pretty much have to shower daily now. I pretty much have been, since I started working out more or less daily. The past week or two, though, I've skipped occasional workouts and then missed the correlating showers. I used to have no problem getting just two or three showers a week, now I start feeling really gross by late afternnoon without one.

Similarly, I really notice it when I've forgotten deodorant after my shower. Before i'd put it on if I thought about it, but it was rarely actually necessary. Also a couple years ago I decided I liked my hair texture better if I didn't ever wash it. I'd rinse it thoroughly but if I used soap it'd be all poofy and bleh. I recently bought shampoo again because my hair was just getting too greasy without using it ever. I still don't want to wash it daily, though.

My armpit hair got a lot thicker and a little longer and darker just in the past week or two, I'm pretty sure. Similarly with pubes, and they've extended their territory about an inch upward so far. Lower leg hair is slowly getting longer/thicker but not by a ton. There's definitely hair on my knees that didn't used to exist, but I may have mentioned that already. My lower belly and lower upper-legs aren't hairy by any stretch, but the hair follicles have gotten darker and I can see where the hairs shoud be growing in eventually. There are even a few actual hairs under my belly button and I can see light hairs in good lighting.

The peach fuzz on my face is back to about the same as it was before I shaved it a few weeks ago, so I'm thinking it's about time to do that again.

I might be crazy but I think my nose might be a little bigger.

My temperature has gone up. I don't have a thermometer or anything, what I mean is I heat up really quickly and tend to feel warm more often, even when its cool in the room. More likely to kick the blankets off myself at night. Alternately, Eira mentions that she's been cold much more often since starting her hrt about a month ago- kinda fascinating!

Lastly, probably much more related to my working out than directly from the testosterone, but my shoulders look awesome. I'll see if I can't get a decent photo sometime soon. :)